Tuesday, December 07, 2010

1# A Story That Was Once Told

FLASHBACK

Homestay In Tokyo, Japan Back In 2007

10th of December 2007

The start of my homestay programme in Tokyo, Japan began. It was a dark, rainy and cloudy evening. Dad drove to Concorde Inn, Hotel which is located nearby KLIA. I needed to attend a day of course before flying off to Tokyo. My mind started wondering off about a whole lot of things. Mainly, it was about meeting the other participants of the homestay programme. I was nervous, scared, thrilled and excited at the same time. I tried to picture how those people were going to be. Were they going to be extremely pleasant or the complete opposite? The weather didn't do much help either. It worsen my thoughts in the car. After approximately an hour or so, we finally reached our destination.

All the participants were in a formal dress. Ties for gents, dresses for girls. As for me, I sticked to the normal traditional clothes, baju kurung. We made our way to the respective halls. Parents and participants had to be separated as both were divided into different categories for the day. The administrator gave a short talk about the homestay programme that we were about to experience. All the rules and whatnot were brought out to brace ourselves in Japan later on.

To cut things short, that night we had another talk to attend to. This time around, we played games and learn basic japanese. It was soothing and I made new friends. My room partner was Arinah, a 15 year old girl from Kedah who was really friendly and despite the fact that I was two years younger than her, we became good acquaintances. I even met three seniors from my school who were very welcoming. I remembered sleeping at 12 a.m. or 1 a.m. because for us participants, the night was still young and we had to brush up our japanese language skills in order to survive!


11th December 2007

Buckle up, kids ! Get ready for the adventures of your life that you're about to experience because we're FLYING off to JAPAAAAN !

Sadly, my roommate and I got separated because she was going off to Osaka while I was going off to Tokyo. Anyway, our flight was about 11.50 PM, 10 minutes to midnight. Parents and participants had to bid their goodbyes before participants had to ride on those trains to go to the other part of the terminal. Once the gate was opened, we got on to the aeroplane.

So, I had to sit between two guys who were from the group. It was extremely awkward. Especially the part where I had to shut my eyes and sleep. Like c'mon, how can I sleep when I'm sitting between two guys? -_- Nevertheless, they were really nice. They helped take my hand luggage, haha! Oh and out of all the participants who were going to Tokyo, or probably Japan, I was the youngest of them all. It was nice knowing that. I feel protected somehow. Hehe. Anyway, the flight was about 8 solid hours. Thank God it was a night flight so I guess the only thing we all did was sleep, to freshen ourselves up for the next day.

12th December 2007

Ohayou Gozaimasu, Tokyo, Japan!

We touched down at Narita Airport at 7.30 AM, Tokyo time. Waiting outside the airport was our bus with a friendly bus driver! He took us to the Hippo Office in Shibuya. This was finally the moment. The moment of where we participants get to finally meet, know & stay with our respective foster families. The first task that the Hippo Club did was, they called out the names of the foster family and the participant together according to the name list, and both had to show up on stage and start hugging each other like mad! It was funny when they demonstrated it to us! The two who demonstrated were jumping up and down while hugging and the music that was playing made it even funnier! :D


"Helinna-san together with Takani family"!

My heart skipped a beat. I came running out to the stage and opposite me came a lady, who looked very sweet with her warm smile. "OMG , is this my foster mom? Cause it doesn't look like her in the picture..", I said in my head while hugging her like mad. When we finally broke off, she explained to me that my foster mother had work and that she couldn't get a leave for today. I learned that she was my foster mother's friend who was named Mi-chan. Mi-chan told me about my foster siblings who were in school right now and that I will be very happy to see them. Now this time, I tested on my japanese language skills. I confidently asked Mi-chan in Japanese about my foster siblings' profile. I proudly say that she was amazed and thought how wonderful it was for me to be able to speak a little bit of japanese. :D


The Tokyo Group ! :)

Moving on, we walked to Shibuya Station. The participants finally went out separately, following their foster mothers. I followed 3 of my friends from the group, along with Mi-Chan and their foster mothers. It was my first time riding on the densha (japanese train) ! Before getting down to Saitamaken (where my hometown is), my 2 other friends got off to some other city/town with their foster mothers. Down at Saitamaken, Mi-Chan, Lydia (one of my friends from the group), Lydia's foster mum and I walked together with our luggage bags to Lydia's foster family's house. The walk wasn't that far but the weather was cold to the max!

When we reached the house, the first thing that I saw was a black inu (doggie) in front of the compound. It looked kind of fierce but since it had his house pinned up with woods, I wasn't that scared to come up to their house. Right at the door, stood Haruka-chan and Sayaka-chan (Lydia's foster twin sisters) who were aged 9. They were utterly cute and they treated Lydia and I both well. I had a cup of Ocha (red tea) which was definitely right for the body with the warm heater switched on in the house.


Meet Haruka-chan & Sayaka-chan, the two cute twins that I first made friends with. ♥


So, while waiting for my foster mom to come and pick me up, I played with Lydia, Haruka and Sayaka. The twins taught us a lot of games which I find really amusing because back in Malaysia, I don't think I did ever play it before. We all laughed our butts off when I tried communicating really fast in Japanese but failed to. The twins both had on the "i don't know look"! HAHA. So in the end we all sticked to talking in Japanese really slowly and understandable. Even sign languages were inserted in too! :D

At 5.30 pm (by this time, it was already dark!), my foster mother and Kaito-chan (my foster brother) finally came to fetch me from the twins' house. Like how we were taught back in the day, I hugged my foster mum and brother madly. My foster mum even said to me "anak saya!" while hugging me. HAHAHA, it was the first time I heard my foster mum talked in Malay. I followed her and Kaito back home in their white Estima. Kaito was being all shy but as soon as okaa-san (mother in Japanese) started driving, he put on a blanket on my lap and I couldn't help but go "AWWWWWWW, Arigatou-ne Kaito-chan" ♥ :D

The first thing that I was touched right after I enter my new lovely home was this :-



HAHAHA, the T is missing but whatever, :') I still love it! Not only that but, Kaito and Aya gave me a surprise gift too! :-



They both made it with love, AWWW :). And not to mention, both their hobbies are drawing!



Kaito-chan, Me & Ayaka-chan playing cards together under the warm kotetsu. ♥


Ate dinner at 6.00 PM (pretty early compared to my daily dinner time!). After that, Aya-chan (my foster sister) came home and we (Aya, Kaito & I) decided to play cards, basketball, watch television under the kotetsu (warm heated blanket) and many more. I had my first japanese hot spring bath (jacuzzi) in the bathroom which was prepared by okaa-san. It was all that I needed to warm up my body again, haha! Anyway, otou-san came back quite late. About 8 P.M, I think. And the first words that came out of his mouth right after he saw me was, "Come to Papa, my daughter!". HAHAHAHAHA I tried so hard not to laugh but in the end everybody else ended up laughing with me. I had a little chit-chat with the family and when the clock struck 10.10 P.M, the rents' told me that it was bedtime already and I should have a good sleep. Okaa-san put me in bed at my room. While tugging the comforter, she said to me "Selamat Malam , anak perempuan saya!":D. It was sooo cute when she said it with her rosy cheeks exposed while grinning! So then, I replied back to her "Selamat malam ibuku", with a big and warm smile. :) That night, I went to sleep while thinking about the upcoming journey that I was about to experience next.

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Here's a funny epic moment (well, at least to me :P) :-

After dinner, I had a really bad stomach ache and I thought of excusing myself to go to the toilet but unfortunately, that little visit had to be put on hold because okaa-san brought out desert. And it wasn't just any desert. Oh yes, it was a milky-sort-of-creme-brulee desert which I had to forcefully stuffed it in my stomach. The desert was extremely delicious but my stomach was making a really big fit so what I did was, I finished up my desert quickly (i actually stuffed in a BIG SPOONFUL of it into my stomach. I wonder if Aya & Kaito actually saw me doing it because to be honest, it was unladylike! D:) and finally, finally I stood up from the chair and confessed "I need to go to the bathroom please!!!". As okaa-san was busy washing the dishes, she asked both kaito and aya to show me the way to the bathroom. I quickly mouthed to them the word "toiree toiree!" - which means toilet in Japanese. And we quickly walked (or probably ran :P) to the toilet together and these two lovely foster siblings of mine even bowed to me while gesturing their hands towards the toilet right before I rushed in. It was really polite of them and I couldn't help but mouthed "Arigatou-ne !" again and again while chuckling even though the stomach was being such a pain. Anyhow, those nasi kandar from the airport really did me well, huh. HAHAHAHA. No wonder my stomach couldn't stand it. :P

~to be continued~

3 days in a post should be enough, am I right? :)

p/s: I know I should have posted this up a long time ago and not 3 years after the whole experience but here I am, reminiscing a past experience that I hoped I can experience once again.

yours truly,
helinna

Salam Maal Hijrah 1432


Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

QuranHadis : Ya Allah, jadikan awal tahun ini kebaikan, pertengahannya kegembiraan & akhirnya kejayaan bagi kehidupan dunia & akhirat kami. Amin #1432H

Awal Muharam, detik permulaan yang baru. Marilah kita bersama-sama menanamkan azam yang baru dalam diri masing-masing untuk menegakkan syiar Islam.
Amin Ya Rabbil Alamin.

"It's a beginning of a new chapter"

Saturday, December 04, 2010

Cinta Nostalgia

Cinta nostalgia adalah cinta yang suatu ketika pernah dirasai, disentuhi dan seterusnya, diingati bersama orang yang dicintai sewaktu bersama dahulu. Orang yang dikatakan itu bagaikan telah mewarnai kehidupan kita yang selama ini hanyalah dilakar tanpa sebarang keceriaan mahupun kebahagiaan. Gambar kehidupan yang sedia ada itu seperti tidak lengkap kerana kita berasa bahawa kehidupan harian kita tidak ada sebarang perubahan yang ketara untuk membuatkan hati kita gembira, air muka kita sedih mahupun membuatkan kita merasai apa-apa perasaan kerana kehidupan kita hanyalah seperti apa yang selalu dilalui sepanjang bernafas di bumi yang dicipta oleh Ilahi. Perasaan tidak ingin hidup juga kadang-kala bermain di fikiran dengan hasutan syaitan yang selalu tidak mengalah untuk menyesatkan orang-orang yang beriman. Orang yang ditemui atau lebih jelas dikatakan, jodoh dapat mengubah diri kita dalam saat-saat kita amat memerlukannya. Kehadirannya juga dapat membuatkan hati kita melompat keriangan kerana kita mengetahui bahawa dalam dunia ini, ada juga seseorang yang mencintai kita dengan berbeza daripada cinta Tuhan, ibu-bapa mahupun keluarga. Diri ini berasa seperti dihargai dan dikasihi sepenuhnya dengan cinta yang diberi olehnya.

Segala suka dan duka dikongsi bersama dalam apa jua keadaan. Segala apa yang ingin disampaikan terasa seperti mempunyai jawapan. Apabila hati resah dilempari rintangan, si dia dapat membuatkan kita berasa seperti dunia ini belum berakhir. Dalam segelintir masa, emosi dapat berubah. Tatkala sakit di hati juga ada terasa. Perasaan cemburu apabila melihat suatu gambaran mengubah persepsi kita dalam mempercayai orang yang dicintai. Tetapi dengan kata-katanya yang manis, hati dimenangi juga dengan cepat dan kita pun kembalilah ke pangkuannya.

Walau bagaimanapun, cinta yang suatu ketika dahulu pernah dirasai mungkinlah bukan cinta kita yang dijodohi Allah S.W.T. Di hari-hari yang akan datang, kita akan menemui jua jejaka yang akan menerima kita sebagai isteri dalam tangannya. Cinta yang dahulu dirasai boleh menghantui kita dalam jangka masa kita ingin mengubatinya. Mainan fikiran yang sengaja membuatkan diri ini berasa hilang boleh membuatkan kita mengingati semula cinta nostalgia itu iaitu cinta yang
suatu dahulu pernah berlaku, tetapi tidak lagi.

Dengan itu, kita seharusnya kuat menghadapi kepedihan cinta ini kerana sewaktu kita merasainya, kita kuat berpegang padanya. Adalah masa buat kita untuk meluru ke hadapan dan mencari yang lain tetapi kali ini, langkah pertama yang harus kita bertindak ialah untuk berjaga-jaga dan tidaklah terburu-buru dalam memberikan seseorang itu cinta kita yang sebenarnya sangatlah istimewa kerana ia merupakan anugerah Allah S.W.T dalam kita memberikannya kepada jodoh kita yang ditetapkan sejak azali lagi.

Manusia senang sahaja jatuh hati kepada mana-mana insan yang lain tetapi setelah hati dipatahkan, jalan kembali adalah sukar dan kita merasai bahawa kepercayaan kepada seseorang telah lenyap begitu sahaja. Namun begitu, pengajaran yang kita dapati daripada cinta yang pertama dapat memberi kita lebih pengetahuan dalam fasal-fasal cinta ini. Kita menjadi lebih berpengetahuan dan dalam hari-hari yang akan datang, kita akan faham erti cinta yang sebenarnya. Ingatlah, cinta bukan sekadar ungkapan.

Friday, December 03, 2010

Gossip Girl Fever


I have been cooped up all morning in bed watching Gossip Girl. Now how awesome is that? :D

The thing that sucks right now is that, I just had to stop on episode 12 because I found out dear sis didn't download the whole episode of season 3. Bummer.

Oh My God, I don't know why but Chuck Bass is just so yummy. Yummy for Blair Waldorf, that is. They are meant to be together, I swear! It's more than just Romeo and Juliet, okay? Actually, I reckon they're even better than any other love couples out there whether it's from the tale of classics to Angelina Jolie & Brad Pitt. :P

And I have a new crush for Nate Archibald. Damn it, his piercing blue eyes just can't seem to stop sparkle each time he's in love. I don't know about his love life but Serena is just definitely not it. She's not the girl for dear ol' Nate. Dan Humphrey is for you, Serena. But just imagine, having a boyfriend who is your stepbrother doesn't beat out the extremely gargantuan, bold word of incest. Now people must be thinking , 'but they're not exactly siblings by blood' but, they seem like one now with Rufus and Lily together as an official marriage couple. Don't you think so?

So, Nate should just .. well I don't really know but sometimes I wished he and Blair would be together someday. But somehow, that doesn't seem to work out because Chuck is the perfect guy for Blair. So I guess Nate should just stick with lil' J. That would be thrilling because as far as I remember, the first kiss that they shared together was smoking h-o-t ! Ahh, Nate Archibald is such a good kisser! *drools

About what I conclude earlier back in the previous paragraph, maybe Dan should just stick to being with Vanessa? I don't really know because I'm still on episode 13 of season 3 and maybe there are some gossips that I haven't quite know yet. Maybe Vanessa might turn out the bad girl or Dan finally lets Olivia back into his life? I don't know. It's all so complicated with the director turning here and there in the direction of the storyline. It's getting really confusing. But Chuck and Blair must stay the same, okay Mr. Director? :)

Before I start blabbing over and over -- OH WAIT ! There's another character who appeared at the beginning of season 3 and I can't help but to notice because he is one cute tanned guy ! He is Scott, Lily & Rufus's real son. I hope he appears more in the upcoming season ! Teehee. :D

Basically, I just can't wait to find out the ending of the story. I heard there's one more season coming up-- Season 5? So yeah, will be waiting for that. But before that, I'm gonna have to take care of season 3 first and then 4. :)


p/s : there's this episode where all the girl characters wore a barrette & I can't help but crave for a red or purple one.


p/p/s : I just read the spoilers for the last episode of season 3. I am shocked! Blair and Chuck. :( Ugh, little J should just get out of the picture. -.-

your truly,
helinna


Monday, November 29, 2010

Always In My Mind

HOLIDAYS are here and I should start doing something beneficial.

until then, this blog will be under construction (:
i'm setting a goal of becoming a brilliant writer.
but to achieve that, i must go study up my language and widen my horizon around this beautiful world.
i shall seek knowledge, find new acquaintances & see the beauty of nature.
while doing all that, i will construct in my music skills.
i never really knew life was about seeking answers and exploring.
i thought we live, work, retire & grow old until we die just like any other humans 100000 years ago.
Honestly, i was wrong.
it was more than that.
it was all about getting to know your creator.
making a good change to this world, is another thing.
life is all about having perspectives.
gaining, seeking and exploring are all the things that may lead you to becoming another person.
when i travel, i feel that complete satisfaction especially when you get to see a whole of that place with people surrounding you.
i believe that life is great no matter how painful sometimes the obstacles & hurdles you have to endure.
all you have to do is go on with the flow with a big heart,
to achieve what you want in your life.
so start asking yourselves,
what do you really want?
that way, you can walk a mile in your own shoes before other people get a chance to.
you may never know whether they want to learn you or deliberately step on you.
love yourself before loving others.
you will learn to become mature & have a completely unscathed life.
pray all the time to Allah the Almighty so that you will never get lost in the near ends.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Selamat Hari Raya , Maaf Zahir dan Batin :)

Greetings!

Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir dan Batin! It's the second day of raya and I'm beat out. I am having a massive stomachache that I can hardly stand most of the time in the day. Especially not when I'm at other people's house, trying to communicate or at other times, I'm probably just tuning in any conversations that my sensitive ears might detect. What's sad is that, Ramadhan has just ended in a blink of an eye. Mom told me we shouldn't be TOO happy about Aidilfitri. The holy month of Ramadhan was a month where all Muslims should have fought the urge to do anything nonsense or things that is not necessary at all. I was seriously devastated that I couldn't really spend my time wisely during that time. I wanted to finish the Quran within the month's time but my planning didn't go too well. Well, I guess I shouldn't even stop reading the holy Quran nonetheless because I am really looking forward to Katam again. As for Terawih Prayers, Alhamdulillah I did manage to go for quite a time. I am grateful that there is a mosque located nearby the house. Alhamdulillah.

So, first day of Raya went out perfectly well. I ate a lot and syukur Alhamdulillah, my tummy was content with food. We went to Moyang Limah's, Nek Cho's, Atuk Lee's and Atuk Hood's house. The whole day we were out and about, off and ready to meet the respective relatives. I didn't find myself communicating that much yesterday and it felt really silent. Sigh, I hope I can overcome this problem or better yet, find something interesting to talk about with the cousins. On another note, I met this German + Iranian guy who was Aunty Ju's foster son. He joined AFS & he is 16! I definitely would want to learn more about his culture. It would be very interesting to do so.

The second of Raya a.k.a today, we went to Atuk Suhaimi's open house. I met Alina there and it was fun! Nadiah came an hour later. Still enjoyed it eventhough my tummy was giving me a hard time. Seriously, ugh. Then, I went to Alya's house for her open house. It was okay, we talked and talked and suddenly Aiman came. It was surprising, really. I didn't expect him to turn up really early! Anyway, he was friendly. And funny too. Lol! We talked about stuff , random stuff came up too. It wasn't that awkward, thank god! So, yes. :)

Right now I should be anticipating Ayah Chik and the family! Bye. :)

your truly,
helinna

Saturday, September 04, 2010

Camp Rock 2 - The Final Jam


Nate singing 'Introducing Me' to Dana :)

Shane and Mitchie look different, don't you think?

Most of you might be aware that I am a HUGE camp rock fan. Thanks to my neighbour eli, I watched the whole movie on the internet. She gave me a link where I could watch it. What was upsetting, I watched it at a really bad timing (tuition was starting in another half an hours time). I had to stopped mid-way to promptly go to tuition. It sucked because my favourite part (A Nate and Dana scene) was played right after I had to pause it. Nonetheless, I came back home with full of determination to watch the whole thing until the end. Unfortunately for me, the internet was not being nice at all. I got a tad bit mad with it. Ugh. It stopped loading right after Nate sang 'Introducing Me' to Dana. Suck balls, I might have to point out. In the midst of waiting, I talked to Elizabeth on Twitter. It was delightful having to share thoughts about your interest with an understanding friend who loves what you like too. I rambled on and on about how cute Nate and Dana were with her. It seriously boost up my level of likeness towards the Jonas Brothers. Ever since Demi dated Joe, my feelings towards Joe sort of perished. Maybe it was because I was too heartbroken to even start back again. Anyhow, I still love them. All of them. Not just Joe, for the record. Everyone did a good job in Camp Rock 2! Especially Chloe Bridges who played Dana. She and Nate had a sort of complicated love bonding. Nate was shy while Dana wanted to learn more about him. It was completely upsetting for Nate because he couldn't tell his personal details to a random girl whom he just met. It was.. too hard. As a solution to that, Jason gave him the idea of singing a song to Dana. He thought the idea was a brilliant one and started composing. The part where he sang 'Introducing Me' to Dana sort of took my breath away. Haha! He looked so frigging cute whilst Dana seemed very touched. I think that was one of my favourite part.


As for the main couple Shane and Mitchie, there was a slight change in their appearance. Not that it was a bad thing or anything but, I find that they've grown so matured. Nonetheless, it did not really interrupt the moments they had together. In front of my eyes, I still do see them as Shane and Mitchie. This love couple on screen still is my favourite couple ever since camp rock was born. The storyline might have diverted a bit where Mitchie became a leader and thus, does not really spend time with Shane that much. Consequently, Shane was a bit pissed at her. But since this is a disney movie, all were good after a few heart felt moment. I am serious, Shane is just such a sweetheart in the movie. If I would to have a boyfriend like Shane, I would be the most happiest girl on Earth. But at last, that does not come easily. Haha! What I like most about Shane and Mitchie are, whenever they start to sing together, their collaborations are awesome! My favourite songs by them in the movie would be 'Wouldn't Change A Thing', 'You're My Favourite Song' and some other songs which.. I forgot the title. Besides that, I think Joe looked really hot in the movie. I still prefer his looks in the first one though but this..this is a change. And sheepishly, I am still in love. Haha! As for Demi, I just love all her outfits. Mostly she wore dresses during the summer camp. A cardigan and a dress were her signature outfit in the movie.

Other than that, I love the dance moves! Camp Star reminded me of Glee for a tiny winy second. Moreover, the opponent team had a remarkably grand stage that can make a person awed by it. I love their songs too, to be honest. All in all, I love this camp rock 2. I do love the first one too because that was when I actually know the Jonas Brothers. Haha! Will watch it again and again because it was definitely one enjoyable movie!

Oh and I think Camp Rock 2 has more singing + DANCING scenes. Camp Rock 1 had a steady plot but this, this was a brand new start for them to come back to camp after a year.

yours truly,
helinna

Friday, August 27, 2010

English Literature - This is A Goodbye Post.

Bye, English Literature. I don't think I'll be able to cope up with you anymore. It has been a great journey following up with your knowledge. I don't loathe you, neither do I regretted learning you. The past eight months have been such a joyful road. I wish I could stay but I'm guessing I just have to catch up on other subjects. You weren't my first priority from the beginning but you were one of my favourites though the class did me no good. Most of the time I find myself not being able to write at all during class. It doesn't matter anymore. Whats past has past. I shall move on. I'll be sending kisses and hugs to you and to my role 'Miss Chee'. Someone else deserves it better. I really think so. Goodbye.

yours truly,
helinna

But this doesn't mean I won't do my own analysis on short stories and poems. I have a big heart to it. It is my hobby. :)

EXAMS - :S

Hi diary ;),

I am supposed to be doing productive stuff today. Unfortunately, that plan did not happen. I was stuck on facebook and twitter letting time pass by like that. Sometimes I find it rather a waste of time checking all of this because seriously, it is only a social network that connects you and your friends. Its not some kind of an educational business or anything. As much as I sound like a nerd, I strictly agree to what I had just stated back there.

Anyhow, I've got to start studying already. Finals might be a month away but OPEN YOUR EYES, there's not much time left before you've got to face the war on the day of the battlefield. I'm pretty much lacking behind in certain subjects and parts. I supposed the lack of reading makes me this way. Or more likely, the lack of paying attention in class. UGH. Especially when it comes to physics, I find myself trying not to let bubbles evaporate when they are all flying away in different directions. Other subjects are better left unsaid thank you very much.

Whats worst, I have my major Japanese Exam coming up in September. You know how Japanese exams freak me out every term because I can't even read Katakana nor Kanji without looking at my textbook. I guess I lack practice in all this. My Japanese is getting way poorer day by day and it sucks! I used to be top last time in class.

So I'm guessing that I should just stop whining and start committing myself into studies. :)

Insya-Allah, I'll do fine. All I need to do is just to study hard and smart. Amin.


yours truly,
helinna

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Sleepover @ Ira's

Dear diary,

On Wednesday, I slept over at ira's house! It was awesome and I had so much of fun.

After school, I followed ira by her car to go to her piano class. During the whole journey there, I told her pretty much about everything that she needed to know. I finally had hope in myself. There was actually a best friend to hear it all out from me after all. Anyway, it had been almost a few months back since I last step foot at her studio. We played some songs on the piano just like the old days. Well, maybe not that old. Haha. Anyway, before her piano class, we run a few errands. It was hilarious when ira picked up the wrong leaves that her mom told her to buy. The cashier lady was simply laughing at her while the other salesperson gave the correct leaves. I've known that I was a sucker for all this kitchen work, so I chose not to be the leader of it.

We walked along the row of shops in our school uniform. I find it kind of weird and cool at the same time. It is not always you see students walking along together in their school uniforms at such areas. I haven't come to a conclusion whether it was pretty weird or just plain normal because I've never been a resident of that area. Moving on, we saw this vendor van who sold Soya Bean drinks. Being ira who loves Soya Bean, and so do I, she bought two big bottles. The type of Soya Bean she bought was definitely the one which gives people a taste of sparkling, rekindle feeling especially if you are walking non-stop while fasting on a hot day. It made me want to quench my thirst so badly!

After ira's piano class was over, we dropped off for a while to her cousin's place. Greeted her for a while and then, we went back to her house.

We went online, had our bath, etc. etc.

Saba came around 6.00 o'clock. Nothing much happened. I tried to finish up my add math homework but by that time, we had to go downstairs to break our fast.

I was extremely thirsty! I kept on drinking a few glasses of Soya Bean milk and Watermelon Juice after every helping. To top it all of, my favourite juice is Watermelon Juice. :)

Unfortunately for ira, she had her gastric attack. Saba and I followed her to the pharmacy to buy her medicine. The plans to go for Terawih prayer had to be canceled due to her illness. It was kind of sad because I've never technically gone for Terawih with my friends. I only get to meet them there at the mosque. And I was just about to teach ira how to perform the Terawih Prayer.

So instead of going for Terawih, we lazed around in the moonlit night. The moon was pretty as how I recall. It was a full moon. It amazed me all the time when I look at nature. It reminds me about Allah, the creator of the Universe. :)

We finished up our homework (but unfortunately, I did not get to finish mine because my add math tuition homework was a pile of mountains). Ira and Saba watched Vampires Suck and I guess the movie did live up to its title. I only caught a slight glimpse of certain parts because I could not keep my eyes open. So, I gave it in and slept early.

All in all, I had so much of fun. The most annoying part that happened during the sleepover was when Saba's alarm call which was this rock song played throughout the entire time for three solid times! It made me want to throw the phone to a wall or something. Ugh!

Just realized how much I miss the bestfriend. :') We've not been spending too much time together because we haven't been in the same class for two years already! It's sad but knowing our friendship still remains makes me feel really happy and I hope nothing will change as it is now.


yours truly,
helinna

Monday, August 23, 2010

Best Friend

Before you know it, things will get a little better for you. :)


I find myself living in a world where my mind gets so narrow whenever I get hit by a hurricane. It's not wrong for someone to actually act recklessly at times because when your heart is having splinters, all that matters is to let the pain go away. No matter what kind of moves you make yourself do.

So on Saturday, I cleared it up with my best friend. I asked her whether I was still her best friend or not. It took me just a few minutes asking, to hear the confession that she had made. Finally, when she told me that 'Yes, I was one of her best friends in the world' , I couldn't help but feel a huge burden beyond me slowly eradicating. I learned that she still remembers me as her best friend though we're in different classes now. It makes my heart a little warmer because I thought it was no longer that way, our friendship. So right now I am just so content having my best friend around me during hardship and happy moments. :)

Being jealous about something tells you that you care so much and nothing can come between anything that you're jealous about. It shows you that if you take something for granted, this is how you are going to feel once it vanishes from your life. It is like a reminder for you to treat others just like how you want others to treat you. And I finally understood why sometimes I find myself living in a dark world. It is because I am feeling this jealousy feeling that could bring me at loss. My emotions often disturbed.

yours truly,
helinna

p/s: might be sleeping over at ira's house on friday. hope mum and dad won't mind. :)

Sunday, August 22, 2010

National Library


For nearly two months of waiting to go explore the National Library, mom and dad finally brought me there. It was a total awe moment for a while because all I dreamed of were there. The chairs, the tables, the books, the shelves, the counter and everything else. Unfortunately, certain things disappoint me in some way. The place is huge but they made the place be filled with unnecessary stuff or should I say, with nothing at all. At least put books that might as well fill up the space. I still think that library in the movies are way cooler.

Nonetheless, the books I encountered were interesting! It has a wide range from history-psychology-philosophical-FICTION. I think it's time for me to widen my horizon, to explore new and educational things. When I was younger, mum used to buy me books about nature, history and one thing I will never forget is an encyclopedia book which I still have it in the cabinet. As a little girl, all I had in mind was story books. It didn't hit me at first but now as I look back again, I regretted not reading educational books to let my infant mind grow to a higher level. Anyway, I still do think that story books help to build up the mind in a way that I can think creatively. I could write stories of magical fantasies that may not be the best but I could go on and on about the fairytale world.

Mum and Dad were occupied with our Malayan histories. I am amazed with our warriors who fought for our country. Without their sacrifice and determination, we wouldn't live peacefully in our country. So, basically we started with the upper floor which was the 4th floor and came down to the 3rd, 2nd, 1st and finally to the ground floor. We had to cross to the other side of the building to rent books. Mum found it really troublesome having different buildings to rent the books. What's worst was that, the amount of books that we came up to was not as satisfying as the one we went. The one we went before was learned that it was only for reference.

In the end, dad borrowed two books and so did I. Dad borrowed books about histories. One was about our Malayan warrior and another one was about world history regarding the Jerusalem. The fiction books were too juicy so I ended up borrowing two of it. Will do a book review about them soon after I finish reading it.

And for the icing of the day, I bought my baju raya :).

yours truly,
helinna

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Intro - Starting Back Again.

Dear blog, I've been missing in action for the past few months. I'm sorry for neglecting you. I've decided that I will start writing again. This time, I'll try my best to keep up with the events in my life. I would want to stare back at it one day. Thinking what a reminiscence I had. Furthermore, I've decided that I want to keep this blog private. Only I will be the one reading it because I wouldn't want the whole world to read it. Besides, I think the main reason of why I want to write back is because I miss writing. Lately I've not been having creative moments of where I hold a pen and start writing non-stop everything that revolves around me. I miss it so badly. Hope this will turn out like I anticipate it to be.


your truly,
helinna

Friday, August 20, 2010

Wondering In My Own Thoughts


I am going to start back writing in my dull blog.

But this time,
this time I will be the only one reading it.
The main reason why I decided to private this blog was because I realized that I did not want the whole world to read about my life.
I want it to be kept to myself.
A blog is like a journal.
A journal is where you write your daily stuff.
Your daily stuff should just be between you and yourself.
Any dissatisfaction or happiness that revolved around you could be shared but in my opinion, not when I write it down in my blog.
I could always tell stories of hope.
I could always nudge the people that I love while playing a prank with them at the playground.
I could do whatever it takes to make them understand in my own words.
But I find it just a bit too impossible because for now I want to keep my veil thoughts.
Until then, cheers !

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

hi ?

I don't do blogging no more.

I post up stuff that I think might captivate other people.

Too bad no one pays attention anymore...

RAMADHAN

RAMADHAN is coming up. We should all turn over into a new leaf, that'd be much more comforting. Let's make this the best Ramadhan ever!

I am excited. Going for terawih later :).

Thursday, August 05, 2010

I'm Back

for a while :)

no one is blogging anymore.

I feel so lost being here.

btw, will update soon when I feel like it.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

A NEW BLOG SAY WHAT

Hii,

To make my post a little bit shorter, i have now created a new blog where I could just use the usage of language in an appropriate manner without being all shy on people reading it. Unfortunately, I had private the blog because I find that personal issues should be kept to yourself and not to be distributed out to the whole world. My major reason of creating the blog is to go wider in the realm of language. I am up to take a challenge of writing bombastic essays that could make readers yelped out in excitement, touch their fragile heart or make their hysterical laughs coming out like a hyena being chased by a predator! Yes, it's time for me to flourish this success that I am still seeking in myself.

Thanks (:

yours truly,
helinna

Monday, May 17, 2010

Shakespeare's "A Midsummer Nights Dream"

Hii,

Read shakespeare's "A Midsummer Nights Dream" yesterday night. Totally was so indulged and engrossed to it. My eyes were practically glued to the book. Oh, dictionary for iphones are absolutely one hell of a good app. I couldn't ask for more. Thanks again lexi dictionary but i think i might want to download the cambridge dictionary one cause I'm used to reading that whenever I do feel like checking up words on the net. Lol, you might think what the hell am I blabbing about right? HAHAHAHA. well, let me go on with my perception of the story :). I'm so in love with the story! A few weeks back, I watched the play with the dearest english lit students. But this time, I read the book. They totally pictured the whole thing up just like the book, except that there were some fillers & instead of a clown with an ass head, it was a donkey with an ass head , ROFL ! My favourite character would be Demetrius as he ... he has a nice name & a hot one too. I'm sure Shakespeare had potray him as a charm looking athens boy. Aahh, helena deserves him. She deserves him a lot I tell you ! Lysander seems nice too but that's okay cause he has Hermia already (: . In the end, they all live happily ever after. Lysander & Hermia :) , Demetrius & Helena.

It was just a dream after all (: . What do you think?

Friday, April 16, 2010

Barefoot in School

I frigging lost my school shoes at school. Oh, what a perfect end for a perfect weekday. HAHAHA, and not to mention, I walked barefoot on the road, to get to the car. Walked only with my socks on. Hilarious but weird. And this emily, as I was crossing the road to end the misery of it all, she went and shout HELINNAAAAA, OMG OMG OMG WHERE'S YOUR SHOES???? Nice, Em ! But somehow, it made me laugh so hard in the car as I had to say my goodbye to her. It's amazing how I could lose my shoes. I refuse to and won't even wear anyone else' shoes unless I just have to. None of the shoes were any closer to my size. That's the funny part of it.

Kay, that was it for today's update. Oh ohhh and yesterday was sports day, RUBY RED WAS THE CHAMP :) . I just knew we could do it ! RUBY RED ROCKS HARD MAN (: . Other than that, I was sooo happy when baby by justin bieber was played at the stadium cause the emerald green senamrobik people were doing their senamrobik thing and and baby was one of the song. I swear it felt like justin bieber was there at the stadium for his concert or something :P. Hahahahahahah !

I WANT MY WORLDS ! Such a bieberfeverfreak. (:

toodles,
hens

Friday, April 09, 2010

Lady Antebellum

I love Lady Antebellum ! Seriously, they're type of music are the ones that I've always & always looked up to. The vocals are extremely soft & when you come up to the highest pitch part, it's the sweetest thing...instruments , definitely amazing. From guitar, piano, drums ! AHHH, I'M SO IN LOVE WITH 'need you now' (:

it's a quarter after one, i'm all alone and i need you now.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Solution

About the name for my blog , I can't think of any yet -__- .

Yellow everyone (: , it was my sister's birthday yesterday ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY THIRD SIS, just FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY I get to tie your hair , which I have never or had done ages ago when you had your long pretty hair. Your hair is growing & PLEASE DON'T CUT IT ANYMORE. (:

It's been a ... week since second sis went off back to Tokyo , Japan T.T . Wekkk , really missing her right now. But don't worry with the power of technologies , we get to communicate as long as 24/7 a day (: . Sorry I've been so busy rana ! And I know you are too :P. So, will catch up with ya !

Next , I find myself having a pretty hectic life. I'm tired, of coming back home late after school & finishing up my homework to the eleventh hour (is this proverb right?) , and having panda eyes when I have to get up again to go to school. Seriously, who would want to live a robot life right? I need to do something about this. I need to balance up my time with sports, music & education. I can't flunk in all of those. That won't settle it all. What not with sports day coming up soon & me not finding the right sports to do. Except for tennis :P. I want to learn how to swim ! All i ever do in the swimming pool or in the sea is act like I'm a hippopotamus who don't know how to swim. Mind you, hippopotamus berendam in the water (: . Lol. As for music, I have piano exam this year for my Grade 5. Both theory & practical. I wanna get another distinction this time ! And education, oh you would know this. It includes everything I learn in school, all the subjects I'm taking & learning.
That's it. I'm gonna do a timetable for myself. Maybe this will settle it all. Well, only if I am discipline enough to follow it.


love,
hens

Thursday, March 04, 2010

Hey there,

Dear BLOG, I'm gonna start giving you a name where I would refer to you whenever I start my introduction of a post.

Sorry for neglecting you too. It has been a month straight I haven't been updating you.

Nothing much , except for MY TIME IS OCCUPIED with homework(s) , school, co-curiculars, music that I don't have the time to update you ):

Exams are next week and I can't wait for the holidays which will be the next week after exam *thumbs up*

2nd sis is back from Tokyo a month ago, (: .

So that's all I can say for now.

Will update soon, hopefully.
I kind of miss blogging, hehe.


TAAA,
hens

Sunday, January 24, 2010

That Put A Smile On My Face

Hii,

My package arrived yesterday morning ! So now I do not have to go around calling them anymore. Goodbye, I won't bother you anymore. On the other hand, I still do have to call someone. *Sigh*. This is why I hate it when they delay what they have to do.
Anyway, school has been treating me fine. Though I feel exhausted and it's only coming to the fourth week of school tomorrow. Still need to adapt, I guess. As for pjk class, love it to bits !
I really do not know what to blog about today. Sorry for the boring post ! I wanna go practice my second song. Should I go solo for that or what? Been so busy I do not have time to compose more songs with the duet partner. *Sobs*. Maybe one of these holidays, we'll work up on something.
One Less Lonely Girl was on radio today ! *smiles*

yours truly,
helinna

Saturday, January 16, 2010

January Babies !

Hii ,

The title for this post made me laugh for a split second.

BABIES?! Interesting :).

I would like to spend my time wishing on people's birthday here on my blog. This is because, I currently do not have anything to blog about -___-. Lame, right? Except that maybe, I've done just a quarter of my homework. So uncool. Tomorrow might not be another free day for me. Need to use that time for school preparation. *Sigh*. What is life if there are no challenges right?

Just now 's wedding themed was BOLLYWOOD baybehhh ! It's really cool tau :). Some hindustan songs which I was familiar with was played there. Surprisingly, I was singing along to it. HAHA.

By the way, here goes to the January BABIES.

So far,

4th - HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOFEA ABD GHANI
6th - HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMILY ARIANA
- HAPPY BIRTHDAY NUR FATIHAH SENUSI
7th - well, hello there ne-yo :). welcome to MALAYSIA. (totally not in the list! got caught up :P)
14th - HAPPY BIRTHDAY LILY JAMALUDIN
15th - HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADLINA ARRIF
- HAPPY BIRTHDAY MANESA MODHGIL

Hope you guys had a great one !!!
Sofea, I really enjoyed your birthday party! Thanks for inviting me :). You are my 8 years friend since primary! I'm glad we're still close :).
Emily, I guess you had one of the best birthday years. Since we TOTALLY surprised you off, crashing into your house & decorating it like nobody's business. And when you came back home, the look on your face was like a smiling sun which sparkles. Hehehe.
Teha, I'm so sorry I forgot to wish you in school!!! ): . We're not in the same class anymore and I absolutely miss you!!! Oh but I did wish you in facebook :)
Ne-yo, I wanted to go to your concert but it was on a school night. I thought of wanting to sing 'Never Knew I Needed' along with you! Same goes to your other AWESOME songs. D: . Hope to go to one of your concerts with my dearest mom soon. Hehe.
Lily, we were never close before. I think we could be great friends now since we're in the same class & I sit behind you! Hehe! Hope you had a blast birthday :).
Adlina NINA, I forgot it was your birthday & I'm sorry I didn't wish you earlier. I wanted to wish you by 12 but when I wanted to, the clock was showing 10 & I fell asleep. The next day, of course I went all blur seeing you forgetting it was your birthday. But anyways, I love you dear :). I've known you since form 1 but we got close in form 2. And now, we're sitting beside each other. YEAY! Just like when we were back in form 2 :).
Manesa, I'm sorry I didn't wish you either. It was a hectic day during the koko registration and I didn't even get to see you D: . Btw, thanks for giving me back my New Moon :)

So there you have it. The January babies.
Not everyone is included. YET.
It's still not the end of January :).

Taaaa~
lots of love,
helinna

Senior Year '10

Hey there,

The first week of school was really interesting , I must say. I am absolutely happy that I am sitting in class between my two sayangs, Azalea & Nina!
About the hardcore subjects, I'm trying as best as I could to understand and hopefully, excel in it. But for now, I'm just taking it slowly. Hehe. Last year wasn't a torture. It taught me something. Being the good girl that I am, I finish up my homework in time everyday.
Co-curicular activities starts next week! I'm excited for Orchestra all over again. 3 years with that club totally made me fell in love with it. All I need to do now is just to drag in Nina & Azalea into the senior group. Not just that, I'm also excited for the Production Club. It's a whole new club which just formed this year. Maybe this club will give me the benefits too! Gahhh, I'm so upset about the swimming club. I was one of those number 60 and above people who signed up. Guess that's why they totally kicked me out from there. What was more upsetting was, I was there for the AGM meeting. ):
Other than that, about my video on youtube, IT REACHED 301 VIEWS today. And I think a few hours ago, it was 281. Dayumnnn, first of all I'm gonna have to thank AZALEA for posting it on everyone's wall in facebook. You almost gave me a heart attack out there :S. But I accepted it & oh goddd, thank you so much ! Next, I would like to thank the sisters ! I guess they promoted it to theyre friends too :). Thirdly, I wanna thank all those people who've watched it, commented on it, rated it, subscribed us, PROMOTED IT & been giving A LOT of support!!! You make the video shine, hehehe. Thanks for the the compliment & everything :). 2nd song could be out anytime soon, so watch out.

I can't wait for American Idol Season 9 Audition in Dallas (: . Someone , will be the guest judge & I'm excited xD!


xoxo,
helinna :)

Friday, January 01, 2010

Happy New Year 2010 :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!

So what exactly was I doing during new year's eve yesterday? The answer for it will be nothing at all. I was just at home, watching tv, onlining just like the usual. Watched the countdown for New Year on the tv. And when they went 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 BOOOOMM HAPPY NEW YEAR, I started laughing for no apparent reason while joining them with the countdown. Hahaha, I ROCK :D! I still remember last year's new year's eve, for the countdown of '09 :). Ahh, what a sweet memory it was. Watched the Jonas Brothers performed Live in London on Disney!

The day of New Year's Eve yesterday from morning until evening, I did go out with my eldest sister, amelia. Tagged along with her & we went to FIVE DIFFERENT SHOPPING MALLS. o.o . Kurraaaazeeeeee I tell you! But had loads of fun walking around feeling like Alice In Wonderland. Hahahahaha! According to my sister, I looked like Alice In Wonderland with the BIG RIBBON CLIP pinned up on my half tied hair, and with the blue outfit with a black cardigan. I know Alice doesn't wear cardigan. But our outfit colour was definitely the same I gotta admit. Lol! And I think Alice had on a blue-ish turquoise pinafore, just like mine. Except that mine wasn't a pinafore.

First of all, we went to Midvalley. Walked here and there for a while. Then, we headed off to Tropicana City Mall to buy tickets for Alvin & The Chipmunks 2, which I will tell you more in detail later. After that, we were supposed to go to the Curve but with all the roads getting closed up because of the concert, sis had to park in Ikano Power Centre. That still counts, by the way cause we did walked around but not much. Hehehe. So from there, walked to the Curve & we had a little sneak peek of the soundchecks for the artist that performed last night! And I was getting hungry D: . From the curve, headed off to One Utama, the last mall for the day. Ate sushi , and I couldn't bite off the food properly with the braces on. Chewing the seaweed was the hard part D: . All in all, my sis ate most of the meal for me, cause I couldn't bite em' properly. If I did pun, only a bit of chewing then I'll swallow it up. Anyway, its currently hurting me now ): .

OH MY GODDDD, I JUST WATCHED CAMP ROCK 2 SNEAK PEEK HQ & HOLY COW, IT LOOKS SO FANTABULOUS I WANNA WATCH IT RIGHT NOW. JOE LOOKS SOOOOOO HOOOOOOTTTT! :OOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! DAYUMMNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!
and I gotta admit that I miss mitchie's long, brown hair with the fringe ): . even shane's cute hair. ):
thanks demi, for tweeting about it :). I guess the reason why they change the hairstyles & the style is because, they've growned up & the did the movie like 3 years ago? So, that could be the answer for it. But still D: ... I wish they kept theyre hairstyles. Lol.

OKAY, I'M OFF TO WATCH IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN. :D
Till then, see ya!

-helinna

P/S : I'm gonna update about today, later or tomorrow, okay? x).