Gossip Girl Fever

I have been cooped up all morning in bed watching Gossip Girl. Now how awesome is that? :D

The thing that sucks right now is that, I just had to stop on episode 12 because I found out dear sis didn't download the whole episode of season 3. Bummer.

Oh My God, I don't know why but Chuck Bass is just so yummy. Yummy for Blair Waldorf, that is. They are meant to be together, I swear! It's more than just Romeo and Juliet, okay? Actually, I reckon they're even better than any other love couples out there whether it's from the tale of classics to Angelina Jolie & Brad Pitt. :P

And I have a new crush for Nate Archibald. Damn it, his piercing blue eyes just can't seem to stop sparkle each time he's in love. I don't know about his love life but Serena is just definitely not it. She's not the girl for dear ol' Nate. Dan Humphrey is for you, Serena. But just imagine, having a boyfriend who is your stepbrother doesn't beat out the extremely gargantuan, bold word of incest. Now people must be thinking , 'but they're not exactly siblings by blood' but, they seem like one now with Rufus and Lily together as an official marriage couple. Don't you think so?

So, Nate should just .. well I don't really know but sometimes I wished he and Blair would be together someday. But somehow, that doesn't seem to work out because Chuck is the perfect guy for Blair. So I guess Nate should just stick with lil' J. That would be thrilling because as far as I remember, the first kiss that they shared together was smoking h-o-t ! Ahh, Nate Archibald is such a good kisser! *drools

About what I conclude earlier back in the previous paragraph, maybe Dan should just stick to being with Vanessa? I don't really know because I'm still on episode 13 of season 3 and maybe there are some gossips that I haven't quite know yet. Maybe Vanessa might turn out the bad girl or Dan finally lets Olivia back into his life? I don't know. It's all so complicated with the director turning here and there in the direction of the storyline. It's getting really confusing. But Chuck and Blair must stay the same, okay Mr. Director? :)

Before I start blabbing over and over -- OH WAIT ! There's another character who appeared at the beginning of season 3 and I can't help but to notice because he is one cute tanned guy ! He is Scott, Lily & Rufus's real son. I hope he appears more in the upcoming season ! Teehee. :D

Basically, I just can't wait to find out the ending of the story. I heard there's one more season coming up-- Season 5? So yeah, will be waiting for that. But before that, I'm gonna have to take care of season 3 first and then 4. :)


p/s : there's this episode where all the girl characters wore a barrette & I can't help but crave for a red or purple one.

p/p/s : I just read the spoilers for the last episode of season 3. I am shocked! Blair and Chuck. :( Ugh, little J should just get out of the picture. -.-

your truly,
helinna

Always In My Mind

HOLIDAYS are here and I should start doing something beneficial.

until then, this blog will be under construction (:
i'm setting a goal of becoming a brilliant writer.
but to achieve that, i must go study up my language and widen my horizon around this beautiful world.
i shall seek knowledge, find new acquaintances & see the beauty of nature.
while doing all that, i will construct in my music skills.
i never really knew life was about seeking answers and exploring.
i thought we live, work, retire & grow old until we die just like any other humans 100000 years ago.
Honestly, i was wrong.
it was more than that.
it was all about getting to know your creator.
making a good change to this world, is another thing.
life is all about having perspectives.
gaining, seeking and exploring are all the things that may lead you to becoming another person.
when i travel, i feel that complete satisfaction especially when you get to see a whole of that place with people surrounding you.
i believe that life is great no matter how painful sometimes the obstacles & hurdles you have to endure.
all you have to do is go on with the flow with a big heart,
to achieve what you want in your life.
so start asking yourselves,
what do you really want?
that way, you can walk a mile in your own shoes before other people get a chance to.
you may never know whether they want to learn you or deliberately step on you.
love yourself before loving others.
you will learn to become mature & have a completely unscathed life.
pray all the time to Allah the Almighty so that you will never get lost in the near ends.

Selamat Hari Raya , Maaf Zahir dan Batin :)

Greetings!

Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir dan Batin! It's the second day of raya and I'm beat out. I am having a massive stomachache that I can hardly stand most of the time in the day. Especially not when I'm at other people's house, trying to communicate or at other times, I'm probably just tuning in any conversations that my sensitive ears might detect. What's sad is that, Ramadhan has just ended in a blink of an eye. Mom told me we shouldn't be TOO happy about Aidilfitri. The holy month of Ramadhan was a month where all Muslims should have fought the urge to do anything nonsense or things that is not necessary at all. I was seriously devastated that I couldn't really spend my time wisely during that time. I wanted to finish the Quran within the month's time but my planning didn't go too well. Well, I guess I shouldn't even stop reading the holy Quran nonetheless because I am really looking forward to Katam again. As for Terawih Prayers, Alhamdulillah I did manage to go for quite a time. I am grateful that there is a mosque located nearby the house. Alhamdulillah.

So, first day of Raya went out perfectly well. I ate a lot and syukur Alhamdulillah, my tummy was content with food. We went to Moyang Limah's, Nek Cho's, Atuk Lee's and Atuk Hood's house. The whole day we were out and about, off and ready to meet the respective relatives. I didn't find myself communicating that much yesterday and it felt really silent. Sigh, I hope I can overcome this problem or better yet, find something interesting to talk about with the cousins. On another note, I met this German + Iranian guy who was Aunty Ju's foster son. He joined AFS & he is 16! I definitely would want to learn more about his culture. It would be very interesting to do so.

The second of Raya a.k.a today, we went to Atuk Suhaimi's open house. I met Alina there and it was fun! Nadiah came an hour later. Still enjoyed it eventhough my tummy was giving me a hard time. Seriously, ugh. Then, I went to Alya's house for her open house. It was okay, we talked and talked and suddenly Aiman came. It was surprising, really. I didn't expect him to turn up really early! Anyway, he was friendly. And funny too. Lol! We talked about stuff , random stuff came up too. It wasn't that awkward, thank god! So, yes. :)

Right now I should be anticipating Ayah Chik and the family! Bye. :)

your truly,
helinna

Camp Rock 2 - The Final Jam

Nate singing 'Introducing Me' to Dana :)

Shane and Mitchie look different, don't you think?

Most of you might be aware that I am a HUGE camp rock fan. Thanks to my neighbour eli, I watched the whole movie on the internet. She gave me a link where I could watch it. What was upsetting, I watched it at a really bad timing (tuition was starting in another half an hours time). I had to stopped mid-way to promptly go to tuition. It sucked because my favourite part (A Nate and Dana scene) was played right after I had to pause it. Nonetheless, I came back home with full of determination to watch the whole thing until the end. Unfortunately for me, the internet was not being nice at all. I got a tad bit mad with it. Ugh. It stopped loading right after Nate sang 'Introducing Me' to Dana. Suck balls, I might have to point out. In the midst of waiting, I talked to Elizabeth on Twitter. It was delightful having to share thoughts about your interest with an understanding friend who loves what you like too. I rambled on and on about how cute Nate and Dana were with her. It seriously boost up my level of likeness towards the Jonas Brothers. Ever since Demi dated Joe, my feelings towards Joe sort of perished. Maybe it was because I was too heartbroken to even start back again. Anyhow, I still love them. All of them. Not just Joe, for the record. Everyone did a good job in Camp Rock 2! Especially Chloe Bridges who played Dana. She and Nate had a sort of complicated love bonding. Nate was shy while Dana wanted to learn more about him. It was completely upsetting for Nate because he couldn't tell his personal details to a random girl whom he just met. It was.. too hard. As a solution to that, Jason gave him the idea of singing a song to Dana. He thought the idea was a brilliant one and started composing. The part where he sang 'Introducing Me' to Dana sort of took my breath away. Haha! He looked so frigging cute whilst Dana seemed very touched. I think that was one of my favourite part.


As for the main couple Shane and Mitchie, there was a slight change in their appearance. Not that it was a bad thing or anything but, I find that they've grown so matured. Nonetheless, it did not really interrupt the moments they had together. In front of my eyes, I still do see them as Shane and Mitchie. This love couple on screen still is my favourite couple ever since camp rock was born. The storyline might have diverted a bit where Mitchie became a leader and thus, does not really spend time with Shane that much. Consequently, Shane was a bit pissed at her. But since this is a disney movie, all were good after a few heart felt moment. I am serious, Shane is just such a sweetheart in the movie. If I would to have a boyfriend like Shane, I would be the most happiest girl on Earth. But at last, that does not come easily. Haha! What I like most about Shane and Mitchie are, whenever they start to sing together, their collaborations are awesome! My favourite songs by them in the movie would be 'Wouldn't Change A Thing', 'You're My Favourite Song' and some other songs which.. I forgot the title. Besides that, I think Joe looked really hot in the movie. I still prefer his looks in the first one though but this..this is a change. And sheepishly, I am still in love. Haha! As for Demi, I just love all her outfits. Mostly she wore dresses during the summer camp. A cardigan and a dress were her signature outfit in the movie.

Other than that, I love the dance moves! Camp Star reminded me of Glee for a tiny winy second. Moreover, the opponent team had a remarkably grand stage that can make a person awed by it. I love their songs too, to be honest. All in all, I love this camp rock 2. I do love the first one too because that was when I actually know the Jonas Brothers. Haha! Will watch it again and again because it was definitely one enjoyable movie!

Oh and I think Camp Rock 2 has more singing + DANCING scenes. Camp Rock 1 had a steady plot but this, this was a brand new start for them to come back to camp after a year.

yours truly,
helinna

English Literature - This is A Goodbye Post.

Bye, English Literature. I don't think I'll be able to cope up with you anymore. It has been a great journey following up with your knowledge. I don't loathe you, neither do I regretted learning you. The past eight months have been such a joyful road. I wish I could stay but I'm guessing I just have to catch up on other subjects. You weren't my first priority from the beginning but you were one of my favourites though the class did me no good. Most of the time I find myself not being able to write at all during class. It doesn't matter anymore. Whats past has past. I shall move on. I'll be sending kisses and hugs to you and to my role 'Miss Chee'. Someone else deserves it better. I really think so. Goodbye.

yours truly,
helinna

But this doesn't mean I won't do my own analysis on short stories and poems. I have a big heart to it. It is my hobby. :)

EXAMS - :S

Hi diary ;),

I am supposed to be doing productive stuff today. Unfortunately, that plan did not happen. I was stuck on facebook and twitter letting time pass by like that. Sometimes I find it rather a waste of time checking all of this because seriously, it is only a social network that connects you and your friends. Its not some kind of an educational business or anything. As much as I sound like a nerd, I strictly agree to what I had just stated back there.

Anyhow, I've got to start studying already. Finals might be a month away but OPEN YOUR EYES, there's not much time left before you've got to face the war on the day of the battlefield. I'm pretty much lacking behind in certain subjects and parts. I supposed the lack of reading makes me this way. Or more likely, the lack of paying attention in class. UGH. Especially when it comes to physics, I find myself trying not to let bubbles evaporate when they are all flying away in different directions. Other subjects are better left unsaid thank you very much.

Whats worst, I have my major Japanese Exam coming up in September. You know how Japanese exams freak me out every term because I can't even read Katakana nor Kanji without looking at my textbook. I guess I lack practice in all this. My Japanese is getting way poorer day by day and it sucks! I used to be top last time in class.

So I'm guessing that I should just stop whining and start committing myself into studies. :)

Insya-Allah, I'll do fine. All I need to do is just to study hard and smart. Amin.

yours truly,
helinna

Sleepover @ Ira's

Dear diary,

On Wednesday, I slept over at ira's house! It was awesome and I had so much of fun.

After school, I followed ira by her car to go to her piano class. During the whole journey there, I told her pretty much about everything that she needed to know. I finally had hope in myself. There was actually a best friend to hear it all out from me after all. Anyway, it had been almost a few months back since I last step foot at her studio. We played some songs on the piano just like the old days. Well, maybe not that old. Haha. Anyway, before her piano class, we run a few errands. It was hilarious when ira picked up the wrong leaves that her mom told her to buy. The cashier lady was simply laughing at her while the other salesperson gave the correct leaves. I've known that I was a sucker for all this kitchen work, so I chose not to be the leader of it.

We walked along the row of shops in our school uniform. I find it kind of weird and cool at the same time. It is not always you see students walking along together in their school uniforms at such areas. I haven't come to a conclusion whether it was pretty weird or just plain normal because I've never been a resident of that area. Moving on, we saw this vendor van who sold Soya Bean drinks. Being ira who loves Soya Bean, and so do I, she bought two big bottles. The type of Soya Bean she bought was definitely the one which gives people a taste of sparkling, rekindle feeling especially if you are walking non-stop while fasting on a hot day. It made me want to quench my thirst so badly!

After ira's piano class was over, we dropped off for a while to her cousin's place. Greeted her for a while and then, we went back to her house.

We went online, had our bath, etc. etc.

Saba came around 6.00 o'clock. Nothing much happened. I tried to finish up my add math homework but by that time, we had to go downstairs to break our fast.

I was extremely thirsty! I kept on drinking a few glasses of Soya Bean milk and Watermelon Juice after every helping. To top it all of, my favourite juice is Watermelon Juice. :)

Unfortunately for ira, she had her gastric attack. Saba and I followed her to the pharmacy to buy her medicine. The plans to go for Terawih prayer had to be canceled due to her illness. It was kind of sad because I've never technically gone for Terawih with my friends. I only get to meet them there at the mosque. And I was just about to teach ira how to perform the Terawih Prayer.

So instead of going for Terawih, we lazed around in the moonlit night. The moon was pretty as how I recall. It was a full moon. It amazed me all the time when I look at nature. It reminds me about Allah, the creator of the Universe. :)

We finished up our homework (but unfortunately, I did not get to finish mine because my add math tuition homework was a pile of mountains). Ira and Saba watched Vampires Suck and I guess the movie did live up to its title. I only caught a slight glimpse of certain parts because I could not keep my eyes open. So, I gave it in and slept early.

All in all, I had so much of fun. The most annoying part that happened during the sleepover was when Saba's alarm call which was this rock song played throughout the entire time for three solid times! It made me want to throw the phone to a wall or something. Ugh!

Just realized how much I miss the bestfriend. :') We've not been spending too much time together because we haven't been in the same class for two years already! It's sad but knowing our friendship still remains makes me feel really happy and I hope nothing will change as it is now.

yours truly,
helinna

Best Friend

Before you know it, things will get a little better for you. :)


I find myself living in a world where my mind gets so narrow whenever I get hit by a hurricane. It's not wrong for someone to actually act recklessly at times because when your heart is having splinters, all that matters is to let the pain go away. No matter what kind of moves you make yourself do.

So on Saturday, I cleared it up with my best friend. I asked her whether I was still her best friend or not. It took me just a few minutes asking, to hear the confession that she had made. Finally, when she told me that 'Yes, I was one of her best friends in the world' , I couldn't help but feel a huge burden beyond me slowly eradicating. I learned that she still remembers me as her best friend though we're in different classes now. It makes my heart a little warmer because I thought it was no longer that way, our friendship. So right now I am just so content having my best friend around me during hardship and happy moments. :)

Being jealous about something tells you that you care so much and nothing can come between anything that you're jealous about. It shows you that if you take something for granted, this is how you are going to feel once it vanishes from your life. It is like a reminder for you to treat others just like how you want others to treat you. And I finally understood why sometimes I find myself living in a dark world. It is because I am feeling this jealousy feeling that could bring me at loss. My emotions often disturbed.

yours truly,
helinna

p/s: might be sleeping over at ira's house on friday. hope mum and dad won't mind. :)

National Library

For nearly two months of waiting to go explore the National Library, mom and dad finally brought me there. It was a total awe moment for a while because all I dreamed of were there. The chairs, the tables, the books, the shelves, the counter and everything else. Unfortunately, certain things disappoint me in some way. The place is huge but they made the place be filled with unnecessary stuff or should I say, with nothing at all. At least put books that might as well fill up the space. I still think that library in the movies are way cooler.

Nonetheless, the books I encountered were interesting! It has a wide range from history-psychology-philosophical-FICTION. I think it's time for me to widen my horizon, to explore new and educational things. When I was younger, mum used to buy me books about nature, history and one thing I will never forget is an encyclopedia book which I still have it in the cabinet. As a little girl, all I had in mind was story books. It didn't hit me at first but now as I look back again, I regretted not reading educational books to let my infant mind grow to a higher level. Anyway, I still do think that story books help to build up the mind in a way that I can think creatively. I could write stories of magical fantasies that may not be the best but I could go on and on about the fairytale world.

Mum and Dad were occupied with our Malayan histories. I am amazed with our warriors who fought for our country. Without their sacrifice and determination, we wouldn't live peacefully in our country. So, basically we started with the upper floor which was the 4th floor and came down to the 3rd, 2nd, 1st and finally to the ground floor. We had to cross to the other side of the building to rent books. Mum found it really troublesome having different buildings to rent the books. What's worst was that, the amount of books that we came up to was not as satisfying as the one we went. The one we went before was learned that it was only for reference.

In the end, dad borrowed two books and so did I. Dad borrowed books about histories. One was about our Malayan warrior and another one was about world history regarding the Jerusalem. The fiction books were too juicy so I ended up borrowing two of it. Will do a book review about them soon after I finish reading it.

And for the icing of the day, I bought my baju raya :).

yours truly,
helinna

Intro - Starting Back Again.

Dear blog, I've been missing in action for the past few months. I'm sorry for neglecting you. I've decided that I will start writing again. This time, I'll try my best to keep up with the events in my life. I would want to stare back at it one day. Thinking what a reminiscence I had. Furthermore, I've decided that I want to keep this blog private. Only I will be the one reading it because I wouldn't want the whole world to read it. Besides, I think the main reason of why I want to write back is because I miss writing. Lately I've not been having creative moments of where I hold a pen and start writing non-stop everything that revolves around me. I miss it so badly. Hope this will turn out like I anticipate it to be.

your truly,
helinna

Wondering In My Own Thoughts

I am going to start back writing in my dull blog.

But this time,
this time I will be the only one reading it.
The main reason why I decided to private this blog was because I realized that I did not want the whole world to read about my life.
I want it to be kept to myself.
A blog is like a journal.
A journal is where you write your daily stuff.
Your daily stuff should just be between you and yourself.
Any dissatisfaction or happiness that revolved around you could be shared but in my opinion, not when I write it down in my blog.
I could always tell stories of hope.
I could always nudge the people that I love while playing a prank with them at the playground.
I could do whatever it takes to make them understand in my own words.
But I find it just a bit too impossible because for now I want to keep my veil thoughts.
Until then, cheers !

hi ?

I don't do blogging no more.

I post up stuff that I think might captivate other people.

Too bad no one pays attention anymore...

RAMADHAN

RAMADHAN is coming up. We should all turn over into a new leaf, that'd be much more comforting. Let's make this the best Ramadhan ever!

I am excited. Going for terawih later :).

I'm Back

for a while :)

no one is blogging anymore.

I feel so lost being here.

btw, will update soon when I feel like it.

A NEW BLOG SAY WHAT

Hii,

To make my post a little bit shorter, i have now created a new blog where I could just use the usage of language in an appropriate manner without being all shy on people reading it. Unfortunately, I had private the blog because I find that personal issues should be kept to yourself and not to be distributed out to the whole world. My major reason of creating the blog is to go wider in the realm of language. I am up to take a challenge of writing bombastic essays that could make readers yelped out in excitement, touch their fragile heart or make their hysterical laughs coming out like a hyena being chased by a predator! Yes, it's time for me to flourish this success that I am still seeking in myself.

Thanks (:

yours truly,
helinna

Shakespeare's "A Midsummer Nights Dream"

Hii,

Read shakespeare's "A Midsummer Nights Dream" yesterday night. Totally was so indulged and engrossed to it. My eyes were practically glued to the book. Oh, dictionary for iphones are absolutely one hell of a good app. I couldn't ask for more. Thanks again lexi dictionary but i think i might want to download the cambridge dictionary one cause I'm used to reading that whenever I do feel like checking up words on the net. Lol, you might think what the hell am I blabbing about right? HAHAHAHA. well, let me go on with my perception of the story :). I'm so in love with the story! A few weeks back, I watched the play with the dearest english lit students. But this time, I read the book. They totally pictured the whole thing up just like the book, except that there were some fillers & instead of a clown with an ass head, it was a donkey with an ass head , ROFL ! My favourite character would be Demetrius as he ... he has a nice name & a hot one too. I'm sure Shakespeare had potray him as a charm looking athens boy. Aahh, helena deserves him. She deserves him a lot I tell you ! Lysander seems nice too but that's okay cause he has Hermia already (: . In the end, they all live happily ever after. Lysander & Hermia :) , Demetrius & Helena.

It was just a dream after all (: . What do you think?

Barefoot in School

I frigging lost my school shoes at school. Oh, what a perfect end for a perfect weekday. HAHAHA, and not to mention, I walked barefoot on the road, to get to the car. Walked only with my socks on. Hilarious but weird. And this emily, as I was crossing the road to end the misery of it all, she went and shout HELINNAAAAA, OMG OMG OMG WHERE'S YOUR SHOES???? Nice, Em ! But somehow, it made me laugh so hard in the car as I had to say my goodbye to her. It's amazing how I could lose my shoes. I refuse to and won't even wear anyone else' shoes unless I just have to. None of the shoes were any closer to my size. That's the funny part of it.

Kay, that was it for today's update. Oh ohhh and yesterday was sports day, RUBY RED WAS THE CHAMP :) . I just knew we could do it ! RUBY RED ROCKS HARD MAN (: . Other than that, I was sooo happy when baby by justin bieber was played at the stadium cause the emerald green senamrobik people were doing their senamrobik thing and and baby was one of the song. I swear it felt like justin bieber was there at the stadium for his concert or something :P. Hahahahahahah !

I WANT MY WORLDS ! Such a bieberfeverfreak. (:

toodles,
hens

Lady Antebellum

I love Lady Antebellum ! Seriously, they're type of music are the ones that I've always & always looked up to. The vocals are extremely soft & when you come up to the highest pitch part, it's the sweetest thing...instruments , definitely amazing. From guitar, piano, drums ! AHHH, I'M SO IN LOVE WITH 'need you now' (:

it's a quarter after one, i'm all alone and i need you now.

Solution

About the name for my blog , I can't think of any yet -__- .

Yellow everyone (: , it was my sister's birthday yesterday ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY THIRD SIS, just FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY I get to tie your hair , which I have never or had done ages ago when you had your long pretty hair. Your hair is growing & PLEASE DON'T CUT IT ANYMORE. (:

It's been a ... week since second sis went off back to Tokyo , Japan T.T . Wekkk , really missing her right now. But don't worry with the power of technologies , we get to communicate as long as 24/7 a day (: . Sorry I've been so busy rana ! And I know you are too :P. So, will catch up with ya !

Next , I find myself having a pretty hectic life. I'm tired, of coming back home late after school & finishing up my homework to the eleventh hour (is this proverb right?) , and having panda eyes when I have to get up again to go to school. Seriously, who would want to live a robot life right? I need to do something about this. I need to balance up my time with sports, music & education. I can't flunk in all of those. That won't settle it all. What not with sports day coming up soon & me not finding the right sports to do. Except for tennis :P. I want to learn how to swim ! All i ever do in the swimming pool or in the sea is act like I'm a hippopotamus who don't know how to swim. Mind you, hippopotamus berendam in the water (: . Lol. As for music, I have piano exam this year for my Grade 5. Both theory & practical. I wanna get another distinction this time ! And education, oh you would know this. It includes everything I learn in school, all the subjects I'm taking & learning.
That's it. I'm gonna do a timetable for myself. Maybe this will settle it all. Well, only if I am discipline enough to follow it.

love,
hens

Hey there,

Dear BLOG, I'm gonna start giving you a name where I would refer to you whenever I start my introduction of a post.

Sorry for neglecting you too. It has been a month straight I haven't been updating you.

Nothing much , except for MY TIME IS OCCUPIED with homework(s) , school, co-curiculars, music that I don't have the time to update you ):

Exams are next week and I can't wait for the holidays which will be the next week after exam *thumbs up*

2nd sis is back from Tokyo a month ago, (: .

So that's all I can say for now.

Will update soon, hopefully.
I kind of miss blogging, hehe.


TAAA,
hens