Friday, August 27, 2010

English Literature - This is A Goodbye Post.

Bye, English Literature. I don't think I'll be able to cope up with you anymore. It has been a great journey following up with your knowledge. I don't loathe you, neither do I regretted learning you. The past eight months have been such a joyful road. I wish I could stay but I'm guessing I just have to catch up on other subjects. You weren't my first priority from the beginning but you were one of my favourites though the class did me no good. Most of the time I find myself not being able to write at all during class. It doesn't matter anymore. Whats past has past. I shall move on. I'll be sending kisses and hugs to you and to my role 'Miss Chee'. Someone else deserves it better. I really think so. Goodbye.

yours truly,
helinna

But this doesn't mean I won't do my own analysis on short stories and poems. I have a big heart to it. It is my hobby. :)

EXAMS - :S

Hi diary ;),

I am supposed to be doing productive stuff today. Unfortunately, that plan did not happen. I was stuck on facebook and twitter letting time pass by like that. Sometimes I find it rather a waste of time checking all of this because seriously, it is only a social network that connects you and your friends. Its not some kind of an educational business or anything. As much as I sound like a nerd, I strictly agree to what I had just stated back there.

Anyhow, I've got to start studying already. Finals might be a month away but OPEN YOUR EYES, there's not much time left before you've got to face the war on the day of the battlefield. I'm pretty much lacking behind in certain subjects and parts. I supposed the lack of reading makes me this way. Or more likely, the lack of paying attention in class. UGH. Especially when it comes to physics, I find myself trying not to let bubbles evaporate when they are all flying away in different directions. Other subjects are better left unsaid thank you very much.

Whats worst, I have my major Japanese Exam coming up in September. You know how Japanese exams freak me out every term because I can't even read Katakana nor Kanji without looking at my textbook. I guess I lack practice in all this. My Japanese is getting way poorer day by day and it sucks! I used to be top last time in class.

So I'm guessing that I should just stop whining and start committing myself into studies. :)

Insya-Allah, I'll do fine. All I need to do is just to study hard and smart. Amin.


yours truly,
helinna

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Sleepover @ Ira's

Dear diary,

On Wednesday, I slept over at ira's house! It was awesome and I had so much of fun.

After school, I followed ira by her car to go to her piano class. During the whole journey there, I told her pretty much about everything that she needed to know. I finally had hope in myself. There was actually a best friend to hear it all out from me after all. Anyway, it had been almost a few months back since I last step foot at her studio. We played some songs on the piano just like the old days. Well, maybe not that old. Haha. Anyway, before her piano class, we run a few errands. It was hilarious when ira picked up the wrong leaves that her mom told her to buy. The cashier lady was simply laughing at her while the other salesperson gave the correct leaves. I've known that I was a sucker for all this kitchen work, so I chose not to be the leader of it.

We walked along the row of shops in our school uniform. I find it kind of weird and cool at the same time. It is not always you see students walking along together in their school uniforms at such areas. I haven't come to a conclusion whether it was pretty weird or just plain normal because I've never been a resident of that area. Moving on, we saw this vendor van who sold Soya Bean drinks. Being ira who loves Soya Bean, and so do I, she bought two big bottles. The type of Soya Bean she bought was definitely the one which gives people a taste of sparkling, rekindle feeling especially if you are walking non-stop while fasting on a hot day. It made me want to quench my thirst so badly!

After ira's piano class was over, we dropped off for a while to her cousin's place. Greeted her for a while and then, we went back to her house.

We went online, had our bath, etc. etc.

Saba came around 6.00 o'clock. Nothing much happened. I tried to finish up my add math homework but by that time, we had to go downstairs to break our fast.

I was extremely thirsty! I kept on drinking a few glasses of Soya Bean milk and Watermelon Juice after every helping. To top it all of, my favourite juice is Watermelon Juice. :)

Unfortunately for ira, she had her gastric attack. Saba and I followed her to the pharmacy to buy her medicine. The plans to go for Terawih prayer had to be canceled due to her illness. It was kind of sad because I've never technically gone for Terawih with my friends. I only get to meet them there at the mosque. And I was just about to teach ira how to perform the Terawih Prayer.

So instead of going for Terawih, we lazed around in the moonlit night. The moon was pretty as how I recall. It was a full moon. It amazed me all the time when I look at nature. It reminds me about Allah, the creator of the Universe. :)

We finished up our homework (but unfortunately, I did not get to finish mine because my add math tuition homework was a pile of mountains). Ira and Saba watched Vampires Suck and I guess the movie did live up to its title. I only caught a slight glimpse of certain parts because I could not keep my eyes open. So, I gave it in and slept early.

All in all, I had so much of fun. The most annoying part that happened during the sleepover was when Saba's alarm call which was this rock song played throughout the entire time for three solid times! It made me want to throw the phone to a wall or something. Ugh!

Just realized how much I miss the bestfriend. :') We've not been spending too much time together because we haven't been in the same class for two years already! It's sad but knowing our friendship still remains makes me feel really happy and I hope nothing will change as it is now.


yours truly,
helinna

Monday, August 23, 2010

Best Friend

Before you know it, things will get a little better for you. :)


I find myself living in a world where my mind gets so narrow whenever I get hit by a hurricane. It's not wrong for someone to actually act recklessly at times because when your heart is having splinters, all that matters is to let the pain go away. No matter what kind of moves you make yourself do.

So on Saturday, I cleared it up with my best friend. I asked her whether I was still her best friend or not. It took me just a few minutes asking, to hear the confession that she had made. Finally, when she told me that 'Yes, I was one of her best friends in the world' , I couldn't help but feel a huge burden beyond me slowly eradicating. I learned that she still remembers me as her best friend though we're in different classes now. It makes my heart a little warmer because I thought it was no longer that way, our friendship. So right now I am just so content having my best friend around me during hardship and happy moments. :)

Being jealous about something tells you that you care so much and nothing can come between anything that you're jealous about. It shows you that if you take something for granted, this is how you are going to feel once it vanishes from your life. It is like a reminder for you to treat others just like how you want others to treat you. And I finally understood why sometimes I find myself living in a dark world. It is because I am feeling this jealousy feeling that could bring me at loss. My emotions often disturbed.

yours truly,
helinna

p/s: might be sleeping over at ira's house on friday. hope mum and dad won't mind. :)

Sunday, August 22, 2010

National Library


For nearly two months of waiting to go explore the National Library, mom and dad finally brought me there. It was a total awe moment for a while because all I dreamed of were there. The chairs, the tables, the books, the shelves, the counter and everything else. Unfortunately, certain things disappoint me in some way. The place is huge but they made the place be filled with unnecessary stuff or should I say, with nothing at all. At least put books that might as well fill up the space. I still think that library in the movies are way cooler.

Nonetheless, the books I encountered were interesting! It has a wide range from history-psychology-philosophical-FICTION. I think it's time for me to widen my horizon, to explore new and educational things. When I was younger, mum used to buy me books about nature, history and one thing I will never forget is an encyclopedia book which I still have it in the cabinet. As a little girl, all I had in mind was story books. It didn't hit me at first but now as I look back again, I regretted not reading educational books to let my infant mind grow to a higher level. Anyway, I still do think that story books help to build up the mind in a way that I can think creatively. I could write stories of magical fantasies that may not be the best but I could go on and on about the fairytale world.

Mum and Dad were occupied with our Malayan histories. I am amazed with our warriors who fought for our country. Without their sacrifice and determination, we wouldn't live peacefully in our country. So, basically we started with the upper floor which was the 4th floor and came down to the 3rd, 2nd, 1st and finally to the ground floor. We had to cross to the other side of the building to rent books. Mum found it really troublesome having different buildings to rent the books. What's worst was that, the amount of books that we came up to was not as satisfying as the one we went. The one we went before was learned that it was only for reference.

In the end, dad borrowed two books and so did I. Dad borrowed books about histories. One was about our Malayan warrior and another one was about world history regarding the Jerusalem. The fiction books were too juicy so I ended up borrowing two of it. Will do a book review about them soon after I finish reading it.

And for the icing of the day, I bought my baju raya :).

yours truly,
helinna

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Intro - Starting Back Again.

Dear blog, I've been missing in action for the past few months. I'm sorry for neglecting you. I've decided that I will start writing again. This time, I'll try my best to keep up with the events in my life. I would want to stare back at it one day. Thinking what a reminiscence I had. Furthermore, I've decided that I want to keep this blog private. Only I will be the one reading it because I wouldn't want the whole world to read it. Besides, I think the main reason of why I want to write back is because I miss writing. Lately I've not been having creative moments of where I hold a pen and start writing non-stop everything that revolves around me. I miss it so badly. Hope this will turn out like I anticipate it to be.


your truly,
helinna

Friday, August 20, 2010

Wondering In My Own Thoughts


I am going to start back writing in my dull blog.

But this time,
this time I will be the only one reading it.
The main reason why I decided to private this blog was because I realized that I did not want the whole world to read about my life.
I want it to be kept to myself.
A blog is like a journal.
A journal is where you write your daily stuff.
Your daily stuff should just be between you and yourself.
Any dissatisfaction or happiness that revolved around you could be shared but in my opinion, not when I write it down in my blog.
I could always tell stories of hope.
I could always nudge the people that I love while playing a prank with them at the playground.
I could do whatever it takes to make them understand in my own words.
But I find it just a bit too impossible because for now I want to keep my veil thoughts.
Until then, cheers !

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

hi ?

I don't do blogging no more.

I post up stuff that I think might captivate other people.

Too bad no one pays attention anymore...

RAMADHAN

RAMADHAN is coming up. We should all turn over into a new leaf, that'd be much more comforting. Let's make this the best Ramadhan ever!

I am excited. Going for terawih later :).

Thursday, August 05, 2010

I'm Back

for a while :)

no one is blogging anymore.

I feel so lost being here.

btw, will update soon when I feel like it.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

A NEW BLOG SAY WHAT

Hii,

To make my post a little bit shorter, i have now created a new blog where I could just use the usage of language in an appropriate manner without being all shy on people reading it. Unfortunately, I had private the blog because I find that personal issues should be kept to yourself and not to be distributed out to the whole world. My major reason of creating the blog is to go wider in the realm of language. I am up to take a challenge of writing bombastic essays that could make readers yelped out in excitement, touch their fragile heart or make their hysterical laughs coming out like a hyena being chased by a predator! Yes, it's time for me to flourish this success that I am still seeking in myself.

Thanks (:

yours truly,
helinna

Monday, May 17, 2010

Shakespeare's "A Midsummer Nights Dream"

Hii,

Read shakespeare's "A Midsummer Nights Dream" yesterday night. Totally was so indulged and engrossed to it. My eyes were practically glued to the book. Oh, dictionary for iphones are absolutely one hell of a good app. I couldn't ask for more. Thanks again lexi dictionary but i think i might want to download the cambridge dictionary one cause I'm used to reading that whenever I do feel like checking up words on the net. Lol, you might think what the hell am I blabbing about right? HAHAHAHA. well, let me go on with my perception of the story :). I'm so in love with the story! A few weeks back, I watched the play with the dearest english lit students. But this time, I read the book. They totally pictured the whole thing up just like the book, except that there were some fillers & instead of a clown with an ass head, it was a donkey with an ass head , ROFL ! My favourite character would be Demetrius as he ... he has a nice name & a hot one too. I'm sure Shakespeare had potray him as a charm looking athens boy. Aahh, helena deserves him. She deserves him a lot I tell you ! Lysander seems nice too but that's okay cause he has Hermia already (: . In the end, they all live happily ever after. Lysander & Hermia :) , Demetrius & Helena.

It was just a dream after all (: . What do you think?

Friday, April 16, 2010

Barefoot in School

I frigging lost my school shoes at school. Oh, what a perfect end for a perfect weekday. HAHAHA, and not to mention, I walked barefoot on the road, to get to the car. Walked only with my socks on. Hilarious but weird. And this emily, as I was crossing the road to end the misery of it all, she went and shout HELINNAAAAA, OMG OMG OMG WHERE'S YOUR SHOES???? Nice, Em ! But somehow, it made me laugh so hard in the car as I had to say my goodbye to her. It's amazing how I could lose my shoes. I refuse to and won't even wear anyone else' shoes unless I just have to. None of the shoes were any closer to my size. That's the funny part of it.

Kay, that was it for today's update. Oh ohhh and yesterday was sports day, RUBY RED WAS THE CHAMP :) . I just knew we could do it ! RUBY RED ROCKS HARD MAN (: . Other than that, I was sooo happy when baby by justin bieber was played at the stadium cause the emerald green senamrobik people were doing their senamrobik thing and and baby was one of the song. I swear it felt like justin bieber was there at the stadium for his concert or something :P. Hahahahahahah !

I WANT MY WORLDS ! Such a bieberfeverfreak. (:

toodles,
hens

Friday, April 09, 2010

Lady Antebellum

I love Lady Antebellum ! Seriously, they're type of music are the ones that I've always & always looked up to. The vocals are extremely soft & when you come up to the highest pitch part, it's the sweetest thing...instruments , definitely amazing. From guitar, piano, drums ! AHHH, I'M SO IN LOVE WITH 'need you now' (:

it's a quarter after one, i'm all alone and i need you now.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Solution

About the name for my blog , I can't think of any yet -__- .

Yellow everyone (: , it was my sister's birthday yesterday ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY THIRD SIS, just FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY I get to tie your hair , which I have never or had done ages ago when you had your long pretty hair. Your hair is growing & PLEASE DON'T CUT IT ANYMORE. (:

It's been a ... week since second sis went off back to Tokyo , Japan T.T . Wekkk , really missing her right now. But don't worry with the power of technologies , we get to communicate as long as 24/7 a day (: . Sorry I've been so busy rana ! And I know you are too :P. So, will catch up with ya !

Next , I find myself having a pretty hectic life. I'm tired, of coming back home late after school & finishing up my homework to the eleventh hour (is this proverb right?) , and having panda eyes when I have to get up again to go to school. Seriously, who would want to live a robot life right? I need to do something about this. I need to balance up my time with sports, music & education. I can't flunk in all of those. That won't settle it all. What not with sports day coming up soon & me not finding the right sports to do. Except for tennis :P. I want to learn how to swim ! All i ever do in the swimming pool or in the sea is act like I'm a hippopotamus who don't know how to swim. Mind you, hippopotamus berendam in the water (: . Lol. As for music, I have piano exam this year for my Grade 5. Both theory & practical. I wanna get another distinction this time ! And education, oh you would know this. It includes everything I learn in school, all the subjects I'm taking & learning.
That's it. I'm gonna do a timetable for myself. Maybe this will settle it all. Well, only if I am discipline enough to follow it.


love,
hens

Thursday, March 04, 2010

Hey there,

Dear BLOG, I'm gonna start giving you a name where I would refer to you whenever I start my introduction of a post.

Sorry for neglecting you too. It has been a month straight I haven't been updating you.

Nothing much , except for MY TIME IS OCCUPIED with homework(s) , school, co-curiculars, music that I don't have the time to update you ):

Exams are next week and I can't wait for the holidays which will be the next week after exam *thumbs up*

2nd sis is back from Tokyo a month ago, (: .

So that's all I can say for now.

Will update soon, hopefully.
I kind of miss blogging, hehe.


TAAA,
hens

Sunday, January 24, 2010

That Put A Smile On My Face

Hii,

My package arrived yesterday morning ! So now I do not have to go around calling them anymore. Goodbye, I won't bother you anymore. On the other hand, I still do have to call someone. *Sigh*. This is why I hate it when they delay what they have to do.
Anyway, school has been treating me fine. Though I feel exhausted and it's only coming to the fourth week of school tomorrow. Still need to adapt, I guess. As for pjk class, love it to bits !
I really do not know what to blog about today. Sorry for the boring post ! I wanna go practice my second song. Should I go solo for that or what? Been so busy I do not have time to compose more songs with the duet partner. *Sobs*. Maybe one of these holidays, we'll work up on something.
One Less Lonely Girl was on radio today ! *smiles*

yours truly,
helinna

Saturday, January 16, 2010

January Babies !

Hii ,

The title for this post made me laugh for a split second.

BABIES?! Interesting :).

I would like to spend my time wishing on people's birthday here on my blog. This is because, I currently do not have anything to blog about -___-. Lame, right? Except that maybe, I've done just a quarter of my homework. So uncool. Tomorrow might not be another free day for me. Need to use that time for school preparation. *Sigh*. What is life if there are no challenges right?

Just now 's wedding themed was BOLLYWOOD baybehhh ! It's really cool tau :). Some hindustan songs which I was familiar with was played there. Surprisingly, I was singing along to it. HAHA.

By the way, here goes to the January BABIES.

So far,

4th - HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOFEA ABD GHANI
6th - HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMILY ARIANA
- HAPPY BIRTHDAY NUR FATIHAH SENUSI
7th - well, hello there ne-yo :). welcome to MALAYSIA. (totally not in the list! got caught up :P)
14th - HAPPY BIRTHDAY LILY JAMALUDIN
15th - HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADLINA ARRIF
- HAPPY BIRTHDAY MANESA MODHGIL

Hope you guys had a great one !!!
Sofea, I really enjoyed your birthday party! Thanks for inviting me :). You are my 8 years friend since primary! I'm glad we're still close :).
Emily, I guess you had one of the best birthday years. Since we TOTALLY surprised you off, crashing into your house & decorating it like nobody's business. And when you came back home, the look on your face was like a smiling sun which sparkles. Hehehe.
Teha, I'm so sorry I forgot to wish you in school!!! ): . We're not in the same class anymore and I absolutely miss you!!! Oh but I did wish you in facebook :)
Ne-yo, I wanted to go to your concert but it was on a school night. I thought of wanting to sing 'Never Knew I Needed' along with you! Same goes to your other AWESOME songs. D: . Hope to go to one of your concerts with my dearest mom soon. Hehe.
Lily, we were never close before. I think we could be great friends now since we're in the same class & I sit behind you! Hehe! Hope you had a blast birthday :).
Adlina NINA, I forgot it was your birthday & I'm sorry I didn't wish you earlier. I wanted to wish you by 12 but when I wanted to, the clock was showing 10 & I fell asleep. The next day, of course I went all blur seeing you forgetting it was your birthday. But anyways, I love you dear :). I've known you since form 1 but we got close in form 2. And now, we're sitting beside each other. YEAY! Just like when we were back in form 2 :).
Manesa, I'm sorry I didn't wish you either. It was a hectic day during the koko registration and I didn't even get to see you D: . Btw, thanks for giving me back my New Moon :)

So there you have it. The January babies.
Not everyone is included. YET.
It's still not the end of January :).

Taaaa~
lots of love,
helinna

Senior Year '10

Hey there,

The first week of school was really interesting , I must say. I am absolutely happy that I am sitting in class between my two sayangs, Azalea & Nina!
About the hardcore subjects, I'm trying as best as I could to understand and hopefully, excel in it. But for now, I'm just taking it slowly. Hehe. Last year wasn't a torture. It taught me something. Being the good girl that I am, I finish up my homework in time everyday.
Co-curicular activities starts next week! I'm excited for Orchestra all over again. 3 years with that club totally made me fell in love with it. All I need to do now is just to drag in Nina & Azalea into the senior group. Not just that, I'm also excited for the Production Club. It's a whole new club which just formed this year. Maybe this club will give me the benefits too! Gahhh, I'm so upset about the swimming club. I was one of those number 60 and above people who signed up. Guess that's why they totally kicked me out from there. What was more upsetting was, I was there for the AGM meeting. ):
Other than that, about my video on youtube, IT REACHED 301 VIEWS today. And I think a few hours ago, it was 281. Dayumnnn, first of all I'm gonna have to thank AZALEA for posting it on everyone's wall in facebook. You almost gave me a heart attack out there :S. But I accepted it & oh goddd, thank you so much ! Next, I would like to thank the sisters ! I guess they promoted it to theyre friends too :). Thirdly, I wanna thank all those people who've watched it, commented on it, rated it, subscribed us, PROMOTED IT & been giving A LOT of support!!! You make the video shine, hehehe. Thanks for the the compliment & everything :). 2nd song could be out anytime soon, so watch out.

I can't wait for American Idol Season 9 Audition in Dallas (: . Someone , will be the guest judge & I'm excited xD!


xoxo,
helinna :)

Friday, January 01, 2010

Happy New Year 2010 :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!

So what exactly was I doing during new year's eve yesterday? The answer for it will be nothing at all. I was just at home, watching tv, onlining just like the usual. Watched the countdown for New Year on the tv. And when they went 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 BOOOOMM HAPPY NEW YEAR, I started laughing for no apparent reason while joining them with the countdown. Hahaha, I ROCK :D! I still remember last year's new year's eve, for the countdown of '09 :). Ahh, what a sweet memory it was. Watched the Jonas Brothers performed Live in London on Disney!

The day of New Year's Eve yesterday from morning until evening, I did go out with my eldest sister, amelia. Tagged along with her & we went to FIVE DIFFERENT SHOPPING MALLS. o.o . Kurraaaazeeeeee I tell you! But had loads of fun walking around feeling like Alice In Wonderland. Hahahahaha! According to my sister, I looked like Alice In Wonderland with the BIG RIBBON CLIP pinned up on my half tied hair, and with the blue outfit with a black cardigan. I know Alice doesn't wear cardigan. But our outfit colour was definitely the same I gotta admit. Lol! And I think Alice had on a blue-ish turquoise pinafore, just like mine. Except that mine wasn't a pinafore.

First of all, we went to Midvalley. Walked here and there for a while. Then, we headed off to Tropicana City Mall to buy tickets for Alvin & The Chipmunks 2, which I will tell you more in detail later. After that, we were supposed to go to the Curve but with all the roads getting closed up because of the concert, sis had to park in Ikano Power Centre. That still counts, by the way cause we did walked around but not much. Hehehe. So from there, walked to the Curve & we had a little sneak peek of the soundchecks for the artist that performed last night! And I was getting hungry D: . From the curve, headed off to One Utama, the last mall for the day. Ate sushi , and I couldn't bite off the food properly with the braces on. Chewing the seaweed was the hard part D: . All in all, my sis ate most of the meal for me, cause I couldn't bite em' properly. If I did pun, only a bit of chewing then I'll swallow it up. Anyway, its currently hurting me now ): .

OH MY GODDDD, I JUST WATCHED CAMP ROCK 2 SNEAK PEEK HQ & HOLY COW, IT LOOKS SO FANTABULOUS I WANNA WATCH IT RIGHT NOW. JOE LOOKS SOOOOOO HOOOOOOTTTT! :OOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! DAYUMMNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!
and I gotta admit that I miss mitchie's long, brown hair with the fringe ): . even shane's cute hair. ):
thanks demi, for tweeting about it :). I guess the reason why they change the hairstyles & the style is because, they've growned up & the did the movie like 3 years ago? So, that could be the answer for it. But still D: ... I wish they kept theyre hairstyles. Lol.

OKAY, I'M OFF TO WATCH IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN. :D
Till then, see ya!

-helinna

P/S : I'm gonna update about today, later or tomorrow, okay? x).